The sadness builds, the pressure inside,

From cells long locked, the poison resides,

I feel like crying, no place left to hide,

Like the need to vomit but the body cant reply,

The pressure builds from deep inside,

In my throat, my head, from behind my eyes,

Somewhere deep within where the poison resides,

I want to experience the feeling of letting go,

Its what I need but my mind body and soul says no,

Even now my eyes well up wanting to comply,

But thats as far as it goes, I dont know the way,

A drop of my life, my poison spills out,

Like a guard in the prison, my mind seals the route,

It starts to return, deep inside it resides,

I am just too tired, too tired to try,

From darkness deep within, the sadness does win,

But the longing is still there, to release the poison within!

To Err Is Human, To Forgive Is Divine

Today, according to my usual routine I was going through the news feeds of my facebook when I found some really ......... pictures! I dont know what I should call it..maybe stupidity of people? or maybe people who have complex minds or puzzled concepts about Islam..Here you go!

Well I am not a very good Muslim. But is it not a useless talk whether to call God Allah or Allah Tala or Allah Mian? I think it all depends upon your 'Niyyat' which means what really is in your heart for your God.. If you call him 'Allah Tala' and you really think that you are giving Him a lot of respect by using this word for him, but still you are not doing what He has ordered you to do, then whats the use of giving Him respect through this name? Why are people going into so much complications as in looking for literal dictionary meaning for Mian!! There are a variety of languages in this world.. Everyone uses name for God according to their tongue..So this does not mean everyone is going to go to hell or is displeasing God because they called their God through some other name..I am not saying to call Allah as some of your relative but I really think 'Mian' and 'Tala' are both perfectly fine as long as you have His respect in your heart.
Have a look at the second picture (also from facebook).

Yes its true that 'Namaz' is the pillar of Islam and all those who donot fulfill this obligation will be thrown into Hell, no matter how good they are at other religious obligations. But I think its never the condition that God does not want you to stand infront of Him because you are a bad person. Infact He calls each and every person again and again. If some child misbehaves and does not listen to his mother, the mother would never want that child to get out of her sight. She would still wish that her child gets okay with his behaviour and will always accept the child's apology happily. God is equal to 70 mothers. How come He does not want His astray people to come back to Him? I am sure if someone performs some sin and on other day goes and stands on his 'musalla' or 'jaey namaz' for prayers, God would love him for this act but only at one condition that the person is really sorry and feels guilty for what he has done. How could He punish a person by taking the 'wish of prayer' out of that person's heart when He Himself emphasizes so much on prayers?

The above picture is also from facebook. So we see the good names of Allah i.e 'Rahmaan and Raheem' (the forgiving one). If God is so forgiving why do people not understand that these small matters as in by what name you call Him, donot matter. What really matters is what is present in your heart and not on your tongue. If you donot have good feelings about Him in your heart and you call Him with great respect from your tongue then you are a 'Munafiq' (hypocrite). Iam sure God hates the munafiq people.
Its a very wide discussion. I know many people would disagree with it and might have other thoughts. But this is what I think. To keep everything in your life including your religion simple. Islam is a simple religion. People just love to make it complicated. Many problems the Muslims are facing today is due to these complications made by themselves.

Sometimes By Losing A Battle You Find A New Way To Win The War

One advantage of our losses is that we create better roads leading us to our goals. If one really misses what he wanted and could not achieve it, then he would be determined to get it through some way or the other. One year back I was stuck in a similar situation. I lost a great opportunity. Probably the loss seemed to be bigger to me than it actually was because I trusted in God too much and not myself. Or maybe I had believed that opportunity to be my one and only final destination. And when I lost, I felt helpless because I had closed all the other doors just for that particular door. We should always set multiple options and tracks to reach our goals. Atleast one thing which I learned from the loss was that I started to create opportunities instead of finding them or waiting for God to grant me an opportunity. I know creating an opportunity does not really help because in the end everything is in the hands of God. But while I was trying to create opportunities for myself, I got polished, learned many other things and above all explored new routes and even new goals which seemed to be more important to me than the previous locked door of the missed opportunity. At some points I also realized that the new goals which I had explored were more beneficial, easily achievable and even more attractive. I still miss the the missed chance and the lost key for the locked door everyday. I wish I could have it but today my feeling of wish is less intense than it was last year, because I have found other major doors which can help me enter the world I have always wanted. Through this one year journey I have realized that I am turning into a self made person instead of my old version who used to depend on people and shortcuts for her dreams. Self-made people can always get benefits through their skills when and where ever needed. On the other hand dependent people looking for shortcuts, sometimes get successful and are able to anchor their ships to a rigid support but if the rigid support falls down sometime then there is no guarantee of the dependent ship.

Pareidolia

The psychological phenomenon whereby the human mind recognizes particular images in otherwise unrelated visual stimuli is called pareidolia.

Aquarius Fun Facts

Highly intellectual, this is a sign of fierce independence that prizes intuition tempered with logic.

Aquarians present themselves in one of two ways. One on hand, you'll see someone who is shy and quiet. On the other, an Aquarian can be boisterous, eccentric, and energetic. Both are deep thinkers with a love of helping others. Both have an uncanny ability to see opposite sides of an argument, making them excellent problem solvers. While very much attuned to the energies around them, Aquarians have a deep need to take time out alone to rejuvenate themselves. The keyword for this sign is "imagination." The Aquarian can see a world of possibilities even when there appear to be none. 

Friends and Family

Even though Aquarians are great with groups of people, it takes a bit of effort when it comes to making close friends. Deeply sensitive and cautious, closeness means vulnerability to an Aquarian, and this is not something to be taken lightly. The Aquarian's direct, no-nonsense approach in combination with their strong values can make it challenging to get to know them. Yet, those who do discover a friendship that lasts through the years. An Aquarian will go the distance for a loved one to the point of self-sacrifice if necessary. They look for creativity, intellect, and honesty in their friends. When it comes to family, the expectations are no less. While dedicated to a sense of duty to relatives, the Aquarian isn't one for developing close bonds unless the same qualities they expect in their friendships are there.

Career and Money

Aquarians bring an enthusiasm to the work they do, especially when it involves expression. They have an exceptionally high ability to put their imaginative qualities to the task and think outside the box. Careers that allow for concept development or demonstration can suit this sign well. High intellect, combined with a willingness to share their talents, inspires many who work in the same environment. Natural visionaries, Aquarians love to engage in careers that aim to benefit humankind in the long run. 

When it comes to money, this sign really has a knack for keeping a healthy balance between having the things that they need and putting money away. Often while out shopping, the shiny, glittery, and extravagant will catch their eye even though their homes are generally decorated with less ostentatious taste. It's not uncommon to find the Aquarian dressed in brightly colored outfits that dare to turn heads. Most are well attuned to their individual sense of style and aren't afraid to show it. 

Careers that suit the Aquarian are acting, writing, teaching, cooking, photography, or aircraft piloting. The best work environment is one that gives them the freedom to tackle the task without a lot of strict guidelines. The Aquarian is unconventional, and given the opportunity to show their true talents they can 

Love and Sex

For the Aquarian, intellectual stimulation is the greatest aphrodisiac by far. There's nothing like a lively chat, rich in culture and possibilities for the future, to get this sign going. When it comes to love, people best suited are those who are not thrown off by the Aquarian's frankness. Open, communicative, imaginative, and a willingness to take risks are all qualities that blend well with this sign's perspective on life. Honesty and sincerity are essential for anyone seeking a long-term connection to this dynamic personality.

AQUARIUS TIDBITS

Health

Each sign has a part of the anatomy attached to it, making this the area of the body that is most sensitive to stimulation. The anatomical areas for Aquarius are the ankles and calves.

Ruling Planet

The Ruling Planet for Aquarius is Uranus. This planet is considered the breaker of rules and traditions. Uranus rules psychology, inventions, originality, creative will, rebellion, and autonomy. This planet is futuristic, intellectual, and even eccentric.

Color

The color of choice for Aquarius is colors of the water, like teal.

Gemstone

Aquarius' star stone is the turquoise.

Lucky Numbers

The Aquarian's lucky numbers are 2, 3, and 7.

Compatibility

Aquarians are most compatible with Gemini, Libra, and other Aquarians.

Opposite Sign

The Opposite Sign for Aquarius is Leo.

The Perfect Gift

The best gift for an Aquarian is something mystical or arts related.

Likes

Fun with friends, championing causes, helping others, intellectual conversation.

Dislikes

Limitations, being lonely, broken promises, anything ordinary.

House

Aquarius is the natural sign of the Eleventh House. This house focuses on friends, goals, hopes and wishes, circumstances beyond control, and love received.