About Me

I am Dr Sumaiya Hasan from Karachi, Pakistan.I have done my bachelors in dental surgery.I am a dry and antisocial yet a simple person.My philosophy of life is "be different and do different".I have special affection with nature. If I was not a dentist, I would have been a nature photographer or an artist. I have a poor power of expression and for this reason you wont find any frequent posts on my blog. I usually donot find enough time and words to express my feelings and experiences and most of the times post videos and pictures in relation to my feelings on my blog.


Sunday, June 22, 2014

What If.....????

Its been a while since I last posted on my blog. I have almost forgotten to convert my thoughts and feelings into words. Just been busy with my health and profession lately so got less time to compose proper posts for blog...was wondering lately if it happens in every profession or its just because that I am a beginner in my profession..when I was younger i had this worrying "school next day feeling" Haha! Now I have "job next day feeling"...do all professionals (or atleast junior professionals) of any field; let it be medicine, dentistry, engineering, business or fine arts etc etc; have this creepy feeling deep inside them as in what will they have to face tomorrow when they got to work? lets take my profession i.e dentistry for example..there is hardly a day or two in the week when I dont have this worrying feeling..will the simple filling do it or shall I have to take the headache of root canal to increase the prognosis of my treatment? will I find all the root canals in the tooth? Will the canals be wide and fine or they will be narrow and sclerosed? I hope I dont break a file in my canal? I hope I dont perforate the tooth.. I hope the tooth comes out easily tomorrow without any bone cutting..I hope I get good access to the tooth which needs treatment..
I know most of the above mentioned words are not understood by you..these are all the worries of a dental professional..in short "I hope the case goes well without any problems or errors"..one more thought "What will people think of me if I am not able to work and perform well?" I dont know how to get rid of these thoughts..I dont know if people of every profession feel like this about their work..It decreases my efficiency at home because this feeling forces me to think about my cases and job even at home..I cannot have a peaceful sleep unless the case is done without an error or unless the error is covered up and the patient is satisfied and happy..I dont know if it only happens with younger professionals like me or with every professional..I want to relax at home by doing what I love..watching some inspirational movies or Pakistani dramas, painting on fabric, blogging, reading my profession's books without any exam worries ahead, reading autobiographies of different people, making something healthy and yummy to fill my tommy, etc etc..but the clinic thoughts wont let me concentrate on something else..the bothering thoughts wont even let me study for my postgraduation exams..LOL..what to do..I think I will have to befriend with these worrying thoughts until one day I become the master of my field (InshaAllah) so that I can do all cases confidently without any anxiety..but I fear I shall miss some really beautiful dimensions of my life then..thats where priorities come..I think excellent and successful professionals who stand unique amongst their colleagues today must have lost some major elements of their lives..I think its upto us what we choose..what we love in our life..we really get what we love if we put in all our efforts but we also loose few other important things in the race..thats the most bitter truth of life. "You dont get all" ..and even more bitter is "You sometimes dont even get what you love the most inspite of all your efforts"  

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