The sadness builds, the pressure inside,

From cells long locked, the poison resides,

I feel like crying, no place left to hide,

Like the need to vomit but the body cant reply,

The pressure builds from deep inside,

In my throat, my head, from behind my eyes,

Somewhere deep within where the poison resides,

I want to experience the feeling of letting go,

Its what I need but my mind body and soul says no,

Even now my eyes well up wanting to comply,

But thats as far as it goes, I dont know the way,

A drop of my life, my poison spills out,

Like a guard in the prison, my mind seals the route,

It starts to return, deep inside it resides,

I am just too tired, too tired to try,

From darkness deep within, the sadness does win,

But the longing is still there, to release the poison within!